No Hurry, No Worry.

In "Charlotte's Web", Charlotte told Wilbur: no hurry, no worry. Ever since I read that, I tried to tell myself "no hurry, no worry" whenever I feel the rush to do my work or worry about my future. Everything turns out to be perfectly okay. Surprisingly, I even got praise from my advisor for this attitude.

After being in a conference for a week, I am behind my schedule. Today, I am worried that I couldn't get my qualify exam down before this semester ends. Then, I remember this quote and I tell myself: just try your best, but it is always okay to postpone the exam to the beginning of next semester.

Recently, I realize that I may not be smart and I am very slow at my PhD. progress. But with the assurance of a plan for my life, I have the peace in my heart to do things no hurry and no worry.

Trip to New Bern

We drove to the place that GPS directed us --- the New Bern Downtown. I couldn't stop feeling that we got to the wrong place because there was no skyscrapers to be seen. We got off our car and walked around. The city was so quiet that I hated myself for breaking the silence at the same time could not button up my lips as I could not stand such almost absolute silence. We noticed that the houses next to the streets are very old, many of which were built in 1800s. As we saw bears in front of most of the houses, we were sure that we came to the right place.

New Bern, the original capital of North Carolina, seats about two hours drive east of Raleigh (the current capital and the place I live). New Bern was settled in 1710 as a Swiss immigrant settlement. It was named after Bern (the capital of Switzerland), which means "Bear" in German. Because of that, the city deployed about fifty bears statues in downtown New Bern. It was fun for us trying to find all those bears, each of which is colorful and interesting.

 

Walking several blocks toward the bay, we saw boats and people fishing. An old church that was built in 1700s is seated in the middle of downtown. Next to the church is a playground with kids playing and a graveyard, which seems strange for me that as a Chinese I think graveyard scary and children would not dare to play around. Most of buildings are typical American style in red, occasionally blue or green. So it was very surprising to see a yellow, mid-east style building (probably a Muslim church) seats next to the bay.

Learned from Wikipedia that New Bern developed a rich culture and have the oldest active theater in America---the Masonic Theater. We looked for the Masonic theater with imagination that it would be magnificent. With some difficulties, we found it, which turned out to be an ordinary looking rundown building. Maybe that is why New Bern is fascinating: no skyscrapers, no fancy shopping stores, but a peaceful and quiet town with rich history and diverse culture.

小孩子，小大人

最近在网上看到一些妈妈们讨论教育小孩子多么不容易。看着感觉真的是不容易，疼爱又不能惯着，又要培养独立性格，等等一堆的事。而且我感觉现在的小孩子大都有点难伺候，都有点任性。
网上有个妈妈说自己女儿8岁，就老是要买某个牌子的衣服，说同学都穿这个牌子的衣服；要求装饰房间，说其他小朋友的房间都很漂亮；出去吃饭竟然还说她妈妈英语有口音，让她觉得丢脸。。。
反过来，也有的小孩子真是成熟的让我佩服。上周末去了一对韩国夫妇家里玩，他们家有四个小孩，最大和最小的是女孩，中间两个男孩。大女儿叫Grace，今年 11岁，之前我也见过。这次在一起吃饭聊天，我发现Grace真的是很成熟，或许是家里老大的原因，一点都没有小孩子气，跟她聊天就和跟同龄人聊天一样。 她的两个弟弟，一个七八岁的样子，另一个四岁，挺淘气的但很有规矩，大人一管就听。让我惊叹的是，Grace也会管教她的这两个弟弟，而且他们真的服她 管。Grace很有姐姐的威严，虽然大了就几岁。Grace给我的感觉是一点都不像那种叛逆的tennager，说话的时候很有礼貌，自己的观点表达的很 清楚，帮忙照顾弟弟妹妹，也不追求穿着，很朴素。我真的蛮佩服的，想想十一岁时的自己，为了一点小事都和姐妹们吵的不可开交呢。
看到网上很多同学都结婚了，有的已经生子的，相信教育小孩子的事也不远了吧。可是如何才能教育好还真是门学问。像我这样成熟程度和11岁的Grace差不多的（甚至还不如），还是先自己成长好吧，自己成长好了才有资格教育别人吧。

What you need to be a good researcher

This American Life 450: So Crazy It Just Might Work
Act One: Mr.  Holland's Opus

Through the above story, I see the characteristics of being a scientist: creativity, rigorousness and perseverance. I have a long way to go.

同情心的局限性

纽约时报专栏作家 David Brooks最近的一篇文章 The Limit of Empathy 对我的触动挺大的。David Brooks 文章写的很好，推荐大家读全文。下面是我摘要的一些文章中的观点：

• Empathy makes you more aware of other people’s suffering, but it’s not clear it actually motivates you to take moral action or prevents you from taking immoral action. （同情心使你更清楚的意识到别人的遭遇，然而它却不一定能够激发你作出道德的行为或阻止你作出不道德的行为。）
• Empathy orients you toward moral action, but it doesn’t seem to help much when that action comes at a personal cost. （同情心指引你往道德行为的方向，然而在这些行为的代价是你所有的东西时，它貌似不能够帮你太多。）Empathy a “fragile flower,” easily crushed by self-concern.  （同情心是很容易被自我关注/自私自利而摧毁的脆弱花朵。）
• Empathy often leads people astray. It influences people to care more about cute victims than ugly victims. It leads to nepotism. It subverts justice; juries give lighter sentences to defendants that show sadness. It leads us to react to shocking incidents, like a hurricane, but not longstanding conditions, like global hunger or preventable diseases.（同情心通常使人们误入歧途。它影响人们更关注美貌的受害者而非丑陋的受害者。它导致裙带关系。它颠覆正义－法官给表现出悲伤的被告更轻的处罚。它是我们对突发灾难（像飓风）作出反应，却是我们无视长期存在的问题如全球性饥饿和可预防性疾病。）
• These days empathy has become a shortcut. It has become a way to experience delicious moral emotions without confronting the weaknesses in our nature that prevent us from actually acting upon them. It has become a way to experience the illusion of moral progress without having to do the nasty work of making moral judgments. (现在同情心更成为了一种捷径。它成为体验美妙道德情感而不与人性弱点冲突阻止我们的实际行动的方法。它成为我们体验道德进步的幻觉而不用去做道德准则让我们去做的讨厌工作。)
• People who actually perform pro-social action don’t only feel for those who are suffering, they feel compelled to act by a sense of duty. Their lives are structured by sacred codes. （真正能够做出有助于社会的行为的人们，他们不仅仅能够体会到别人的遭遇，他们又一种责任感促使他们作出行动。他们的生活是被神圣法则所指导的。）They would feel a sense of shame or guilt if they didn’t live up to the code. （若不能够将这些法则付诸实践，他们会有一种愧疚感和负罪感。）

之前我自己觉得自己好像还蛮有同情心的，看到别人不幸的遭遇都会报以同情，看到动物被屠杀也会很同情，颇有些同情心过剩的样子，自以为自己有同情心，是个有道德的人。
可 是说实话，我很少帮助那些社会上需要帮助的人，比如说贫困地区的儿童，受伤的动物，等等。很多时候，帮助别人意味着牺牲自己的一些东西，而我内心里是很自 私的，所以同情心很少很少会转化成为行动。偶尔做出的帮助别人的行为却是因为自己当时心情很好，或是对突发事件（比如地震）产成的同情（也有可能是受大环 境的影响。。。）。
更深一步看，我在时时利用这种同情心。我利用它把自己伪装成为有道德的人，避免着做出牺牲自我的事情，它给我一种自以为是的道德高尚的幻觉，蒙蔽我看到自己丑陋的人性。
而 如何才能改变这些呢，如何才能成为不光有同情心更将其付诸实际行动的人呢？我想上面文章作者说的神圣法则确实是一种方法。虽然当下的我们因为太关注自我， 太以自我为中心，而根本寻找不到这样的法则，可是我的确认识这样的朋友，他们大都是有信仰的人，是以上帝/神的准则要求自己的，达不到这些准则的要求，他 们会有负罪感会忏悔，下一次会努力去做的更好。

Recommended reading by Joshua Sowin

http://www.fireandknowledge.org/recommended/#Top

[转自mitbbs]户外版FAQ之常用购物网站

http://www.mitbbs.com/article0/Outdoors/31218897_0.html

发信人: sanny (弦歌雅意，杯酒良朋), 信区: Outdoors
标  题: 户外版FAQ之常用购物网站
发信站: BBS 未名空间站 (Thu Aug 28 00:00:57 2008)

http://www.backcountry.com
户外站，东西齐，常打折，免运费。但折扣一般不是最大。。

http://www.steepandcheap.com 
(SAC) backcountry.com旗下限时抢购网站。在本版有极高知名度
，如果看见版上突然没头没脑出现一帖子，“鸟衣！快！”，那就是说SAC上正在卖Arc
'Teryx牌的上衣。由于折扣一般都在60％以上，出现比较好的装备时，抢购竞争非常激
烈，必须眼疾手快才能拿下。但同样由于这么大的折扣，出现的商品一般都是比较过时
的，所以也不要被低价冲昏了头脑购入自己不需要的东西。Tips：SAC网站上可以下载
Alert；http://sac.gearattack.com/等网站可以查询以往出现过的装备。

http://www.sierratradingpost.com
(STP) 一个常年35％-70％折扣的户外装备网站。一般型号或
者大小不齐，但如果正好有你的size，一般也是不错的deal。除了常规的35％-70％折
扣外，注册后几乎每天都会收到email coupon，或另外的20％折扣，或免运费。不过这
些折扣一般限定了商品，或者必须购物一定金额以上。而且，如前面提到过的，这个网
站要收运费，所以综合考虑吧。

(credit to  plutino )
STP任何时候都可以通过猜谜拿到免运费。他们每期catelog上会藏有一个谜语，如果找到并且猜出来会免运费。如果你懒得找／猜，可以去fatwallet的STP thread看看，那里几乎任何时候都有可以用的谜语＋答案。

http://www.moosejaw.com
一家比较有趣的户外站，东西齐，常打折（基本常年有全站15％ off的code）。这个站上，即使全价物品，用上15％折扣加12.2％的MS cash back，加上免税免运费，一般已经是不错的deal了（warm，but not hot。。）
网站的口号是“Love the madness”，而你check out后以及收到物品后，会读到一些疯疯癫癫的话，一笑置之吧。

http://www.geartrade.com/
严格说是户外用品二手交易网站，可买可卖，但backcountry.com也把几乎全新的退货（包括SAC等站的退货）放上面卖，可以一淘。。但除了描述不符就再没有退货服务了。。

http://www.spadout.com
（Credit to MetalMania）
就如网站首页说的那样，“We watch the prices, so you can plan the adventure.” spadout 可以同时搜索几乎所有我们熟悉的户外网站，如Backcountry，Moosejaw，Altrec等。并且可以按size搜索，确定快速准确找到最佳deal。有时网站有通用coupon的，spadout 会显示打折后价格，比如经常会提示你要拿这个价的话，请输入XXXX code，让你不用再去别处寻找。

http://www.mountaingear.com/
（Credit to cdwt）
可能找到不错东西（但通常size不齐）50％左右折扣的地方。淘deal时别忘了到这里看一眼，美中不足是没有MS Cash Back。。

http://www.REI.com
这个也算吧。美国最大最专业的户外装备连锁店（？）服务好，价格贵。但价格贵也有打折的好天时，加上local就能随意看货试货退换货的地利，以及专业服务员的人和，在价格相差不大的情况下，强烈推荐在这里购买装备。
Tip：加入会员后会收到一个15％ off的限时限次coupon，但似乎是不限时也不限次的。。如果选择网上购买的话。咳咳。

http://www.bing.com/
（这个不局限于户外商品）点“shopping”输入你想买的东西，然后就会出现一堆价格诱人的商店list，然后择其便宜而买之吧。上述这些网站都有不小的折扣（除了REI）。Good luck！

by cookiejar
4: steepandcheap, chainlove, whiskeymalitia, and tramdock
【 在 yccyccy (yy) 的大作中提到: 】
: backcountry到底有几个这样的马甲？

by cdwt
我买过东西的不错的网站还有：
http://www.campmor.com/
http://www.mountaingear.com/

by MetalMania:
You can also search good deal at www.spadout.com

繁体书籍

http://haodoo.net/?M=hd&P=welcome

Goodbye Summer 2011

I slacked the past several days savoring this late summer, wearing skirts as much as possible, having picnic, watching movies in the outdoor, sleeping in sleeping bag on the floor(pretending doing camping). I want to do things that I couldn't be able to do once the cool fall or the cold winter is here. Summer'11 will soon end. But I will remember it: the struggles in my heart as I become more and more aware of my weaknesses, the fun I have in my blanket tower, the beautiful sunshine and the sea in outer banks beach, and the lovely walk in the rainy Chicago downtown.

I will welcome the fall by going to the first football game of this season, in red to support Wolfpack. Red means Go!

P.S.
Clearly, Mr. Zinsser is much much better at savoring the end of the summer and the beginning of the fall. http://theamericanscholar.org/peter-mcguires-holiday/

American Stories from VOA

Selection of American Stories from VOA by SuccessfulEnglish.com
http://successfulenglish.com/discover/discover-online-intermediate/american-stories-from-voa/

American Stories from VOA
http://www.voanews.com/learningenglish/search/?c=n&searchphrase=%22AMERICAN%20STORIES%22

"2 on 5"-The story of 1992 North Jackson Chiefs vs. Fort Payne Wildcats basketball game

The 1992 North Jackson Chiefs vs. Fort Payne Wildcats high school basketball game was one of the few times a team with only two remaining players beat a team that still had five in the 117-year history of organized basketball.

However, the real lives of the winners in this game were heartbreaking with players being shot, going to jail, ending up fighting with each other.

It is breathtakingly exciting and profoundly sad.

The source: http://sportsillustrated.cnn.com/vault/article/magazine/MAG1149384/index.htm

December 08, 2008 2 On 5 One night in 1992, in a small town in Alabama, the North Jackson Chiefs won a game against seemingly insurmountable odds. Then came the crashes and the gunshots and one man's fateful choice THOMAS LAKE

IF YOU could unbreak the bones and erase the scars, recall the bullets and sever the chains, recap the bottles and catch all the smoke, if you could swim 16 years up the river of time and find a town called Stevenson, you just might see something glorious.

Stevenson lies between two ridges in north Alabama, by the Tennessee River, a dark blue vein on the earth. There, on Valentine's Day 1992, the North Jackson Chiefs hosted the Fort Payne Wildcats in high school basketball. It was not a playoff game, not even a conference game, and neither team was especially good. But in the 117-year history of organized basketball, it was one of the few times a team with only two remaining players beat a team that still had five.

If this were a movie, the story would end at the final buzzer. The winners would always be winners, fists in the air and black jerseys glistening, and the losers would always hang their heads. This is not a movie. Morning came and they all woke up.

These officials can be blamed for this. They let this thing get out of hand completely.

That's the voice of George Guess, apothecary and Chiefs radio announcer, with 2:53 left in the fourth quarter. He's perched on a stage at the end of the court, next to a colossal painting of an American Indian with a headdress of blood-red feathers.

Until a few days before the game, North Jackson had 10 players. Then the leading scorer quit because the coach wouldn't let him play every minute. Now, as the game winds down, the Chiefs' best all-around player, point guard Chris Stewart, has fouled out. Eight Chiefs standing. Already the referees have called about 70 fouls.

The Chiefs lead 58--55. Their best remaining player has the ball, facing the basket.

Robert Collier pulls up from fifteeeeen—

Robert is the largest Chief, 6'1", 245 pounds, the only true post player on a roster full of guards. He has been playing with four fouls since the first half. He lives in the projects. He can't afford a varsity jacket or a class ring. He owns one pair of pants, which his mother washes every night and dries on the heater because she has no clothes dryer. On warm days he wears his mother's shorts to school and hopes no one can tell.

Tonight Robert's mother is in the bleachers, as always, and his father is on Death Row.

—no good. Murphy Thompson with the rebound. We've got a whistle and a foul.... Did they call it on Murphy Thompson? If so, he's gone.

Seven Chiefs standing. Their school is on the north side of Stevenson, a rusty old town of 2,000 where goats graze in meadows above the vacant redbrick buildings of Main Street and a farmer hands out free yellow squash from the bed of his pickup truck.

Fort Payne is about six times larger than Stevenson and 40 miles to the south. It has mansions on the eastern ridge and enough cotton mills to justify the self-proclaimed title Official Sock Capital of the World.

Fort Payne scores, cutting North Jackson's lead to one. Both teams turn the ball over. The Chiefs get it back on the baseline with about two minutes left.

Collier will trigger the ball inside.

His father has been on Death Row since 1978. They used to be Big Robert and Little Robert, and they rode in Big Robert's Chevy Chevelle convertible to go fishing and to football games. Then Big Robert lost his job and the money dwindled, and he was too proud to ask for help. He drove the Chevelle to Georgia and put his .32 revolver in a grocery bag and walked into a flower shop and pulled the gun and got the cash and sped off. Two deputy sheriffs caught up to him and pulled him over, but he wrestled a gun away from one of them and shot both men. One died. Big Robert drove home and gave his wife $70 from the flower shop. The police caught him the next day. Little Robert was two months from his fifth birthday.

We've got a turnover against North Jackson. Collier moved along the baseline. And you can't do that [after] a turnover, which is what it was. You can do it after a score.

Little Robert became the man of the house. When his mother got tired on the 205-mile drive to the prison in Georgia, he dropped chips of ice down her back to keep her awake. By 13 or 14 he was taking turns behind the wheel. He always said he would grow up and get rich so he could bust his daddy out of jail.

The Wildcats turn the ball over with about 90 seconds left. Chiefs by one. Now they turn it over.

So here comes Fort Payne with an opportunity to take their first lead of the game. And they do!

Fort Payne leads 59--58 with about 1:15 to go. Another whistle, like fingernails on a blackboard.

And we've got a foul called. They're gonna call it on Chad Cobb.

Somehow this is Chad's first foul. He is Robert Collier's distant cousin, a grinning coil of muscle and fist, the quickest Chief and probably the shortest. He is only 5'8", but his vertical leap is so good that the coach sometimes puts him at center court for the opening tip.

Chad rides his Yamaha along the ridges above town, daring the hillbillies to chase him, and he drag-races in the streets, leaving long black rubber trails. Robert sometimes rides on the back, big man on a little bike, one arm around Chad's midsection at 100 mph, popping wheelies, jumping hills, leaning together on sharp curves, running from their enemies. Chad has Robert's trust. They never crash and never get caught.

Fort Payne makes both free throws to lead by three. Aftear a Chiefs turnover a Wildcat is fouled but misses the front end of a one-and-one. The Chiefs rebound with 45 seconds left.

Still got a chance. Sixty-one to 58.... Out to Chad Cobb. Needs to crank up for three!

Chad was a small-boned kid who took his share of whippings growing up. Lately he has been doing the whipping, especially on the white boys who hurl rocks and the n-word in his general direction.

He puts it up from three—

Chad is a streetballer: fast and reckless, prone to turnovers and wild shots, feet sometimes kicking to the side on his jumper.

—it's no good.

Two years after the game, a car will run Chad's motorcycle off the road, sending him hurtling into a fence post. His right leg will bend upward till the foot is past his shoulder, leaving the kneecap hanging by the skin and blood vessels, but he will walk again nine months later and then climb back on his bike and twist the throttle and go.

Fort Payne with 28 seconds. And the ball stolen away by Travis Smith! He puts it up. It's good! One-point game.

Clinging to the lead, Fort Payne milks the clock to five seconds. Another foul, another Chief gone. Six left now. Fort Payne makes the first free throw, increasing the lead to two.

They've pretty well sealed the fate of the North Jackson Chiefs.

Fate goes by many names. Sixteen years later, on Aug. 24, 2008, Little Robert Collier will tell a stranger that God still has a plan for him. But he won't blame God, or anyone else, for the way his life has turned out.

"We make our own choices," he'll say.

Thirty-two minutes of basketball, 74 fouls. That's over two fouls per minute of playing time. I think you'd have to check a long way to find very many games that would even come close to such.

George Guess is right, although a 75th foul is called as time expires. That's one foul every 25.6 seconds. The NBA record for total fouls in regulation since the 24-second clock was installed, 84, was set by the Indiana Pacers and the Kansas City Kings in 1977. That game lasted 48 minutes: one foul every 34.3 seconds.

Fort Payne is on the foul line, up by two with five seconds left. The team has made only 10 of its 30 free throws. A man yells from the bleachers, long and low, to distract the shooter.

I don't know whether there's anybody made a film of this game or not, but this will certainly be one for study by the officials' association.

A film of this game. Near the end of the following decade, the people of Stevenson will still be searching. At dusk one summer day Chad's father will sit at home, thinking about it. "I'd give anything to get that tape," he'll say. "If I had the money, I'd put out a reward."

Frank Cobb lugs his camcorder to most of his son's games. But tonight, late in a mediocre season, he decides the Chiefs are a waste of tape. Later he will look back on the mistakes in his life and conclude this was the biggest.

Nevertheless, Frank and others will swear they saw camcorders in the bleachers that night, at least one and as many as three, over on the Fort Payne side. They'll conclude that whoever made those tapes must have set them on fire.

The shot is missed. Chiefs with the rebound.

Five seconds. Four. Three. Chiefs still down by two.

Travis Smith down, he pulls it up—

Travis will think back on this game 16 years later, and it will give him chills. He grew up with Robert and Chad in Stevenson, playing backyard ball on the iron-rich clay. One day in agricultural-science class when the teacher wasn't looking, he and Chad conspired to climb through the suspended ceiling and liberate Little Debbies from the snack room.

—we've got a whistle.... Wai-ait a minute. It's not over yet.... No time shows on the clock.... Travis Smith goes to the line.... And he will get three because he was shooting from three-point range when he was fouled.

Travis bounces the Wilson Jet-Pro on the hardwood. Every day at the end of practice he shoots free throws and doesn't stop until he's made 10 in a row.

He hits the first. It's a one-point game.

Travis wants to play for the Detroit Pistons, like Isiah Thomas and Joe Dumars.

Next one is up. It's good!

Instead he will pour concrete and drive a truck. He will have six children by three women.

Travis Smith. All the pressure on his shoulders. Does he make it? No. We've got overtime.

Travis fouls out 59 seconds into overtime. Five Chiefs standing.

One night five years later, on Jan. 26, 1997, he will quarrel with one of his former teammates. Travis will borrow a pistol and find the man in a drugstore parking lot and raise the gun and pull the trigger.

Robert Collier gets the ball. Robert may have to be the guard. He takes it down the floor.

Sixteen years later Robert's name will still come up in conversation at Friday's, a restaurant in Stevenson, especially at the table known as the Liars' Table, where retired men gather to tell tall tales over biscuits and gravy. The memory of this game will be one of the few things that can stop them from talking football. David Smith, the boys' old ag-science teacher, will stop by occasionally.

"You hope," Smith will say, referring to Robert and the magical game, "that will be a turning point in his life. You hope and pray." He'll think about Robert for a moment. "I don't know where Robert's at right now," he'll say.

It's a two-point game in favor of Fort Payne, 64--62. Comes in to Stafford Henry, off to Chad Cobb.

After high school Chad will attend motorcycle mechanics' school in Florida, working part time to pay his way, just scraping by. One night he will go to the gas station to put a gallon in the tank. The price will be 92 cents, and he'll scrounge up exactly 92 cents. He'll go inside and try to pay and the clerk will tell him he can't pay with that much small change, and Chad will see other customers staring. Finally he'll slap the pennies on the counter.

"Here it is," he'll say. "I paid for it. I'm leaving." He will drive away with tears in his eyes.

A moment later he'll stop for a homeless man with no legs. He'll let the man cross the road, wheeling his wheelchair with one hand, pulling a cart with the other. The man will look Chad in the eye and smile.

From then on, whenever he feels a twinge of self-pity, Chad will remember that smile.

We've got a whistle and a foul.

Stafford is gone with 1:41 left. Four Chiefs standing.

Two seconds later, another whistle.

And Thomas Hutchins is gone now. Hutchins is out of the game with 1:39 to go.

Thomas is best friends with Travis and Chad. They play secret games of Rook in the back of Mr. Smith's ag-science class. One day nine years later, on Feb. 26, 2001, Thomas will drive through a stop sign and hit a man playing basketball in the street. The man will fly toward the power lines and land in a field, cracking his vertebrae and puncturing a lung.

Three Chiefs standing: Robert, Chad and Chris Shelby, who comes from deep on the bench and fouls very hard.

And coach Jay Sanders has elected to use his only remaining timeout.

Sanders knows what it's like to be poor. His first bed was a dresser drawer, and he played in the snow wearing socks wrapped in bread bags. He lent Robert a tie to wear on game days and never asked him to give it back. He spent all season trying to persuade Robert to use the pump fake. "The kids'll go flying," he told Robert, "and you're wide open."

No one could remember Robert using it in a game.

This is an ugly thing, folks, for a high school basketball game, and it's all a result, in my opinion, of the officiating.... I don't know the names of any official that's working this game and don't really care to know. But I certainly think that games of this nature should certainly be evaluated by whoever is in charge of the officials' association.

The referees' names will be forgotten. One will be rumored to live down the road in the town of Hollywood, but when reached by telephone he will swear he was not in Stevenson that night.

Both teams are given to slap-happy defense, and the storm of whistles may simply be the refs' best attempt to stop the boys from knocking each other around. They will ultimately call 84 personal fouls; Guess counts 40 on North Jackson, 44 on Fort Payne. The Wildcats had more players to begin with and so will have more at the end.

And we've got a foul called now on Fort Payne.... Chad Cobb goes to the line.

The game will end and the years will pass and sometimes Chad will still hear this crowd roaring.

Chad Cobb misses the free throw, and Fort Payne claims the rebound. They're playing five against three. They'll just back it out and wind [down] the clock.... 67 to 62. All over but the crying.

Nothing in the manual could prepare a coach for this. In retrospect it will be easy to say what Fort Payne coach Phillip Collie should have done with 1:38 to play. Poured it on. Pressed his two-man advantage. Widened the lead until it was insurmountable. But Collie does what seems to make sense at the time. He bleeds the clock. Sixteen years later, in an e-mail to a reporter, he will write, "I want to ask that if in your story there is blame concerning the North Jackson game, that you put it all on me." Fine. But he is a better coach than his players think. He came to Fort Payne to be near his only relatives and his in-laws after his wife, Dixie, died in childbirth, leaving him with a newborn and a toddler to raise alone. The North Jackson game will drive him to work even harder. After the next season he will leave Fort Payne for Buckhorn High in New Market, Ala., and two years later he will win a Class 5A state title.

Another whistle, another foul on Chris Shelby (his fourth), another missed free throw by Fort Payne.

Chiefs get the rebound. Chad Cobb, just take it on in. Pull up from three, he is fouled and will go to the line with 54 seconds to go. So now Chad Cobb will have the pressure on his back. And Chad Cobb drops it in.

Chad will finish mechanics' school and become service manager at a motorcycle and ATV shop across the Tennessee line. His marriage will fall apart and his wife will leave for Texas, but he'll go to court and win primary custody of his daughter, Shanele, and his son, Chad Jr. He'll coach Chad Jr. in football and teach him to fix motorcycles and tell him he can be anything he wants, even a doctor.

Chad hits. So it's 67 to 64.

Chad will decide he should be in the Guinness Book of World Records for this game. He'll want to make a movie about it. He'll say it's something not even Michael Jordan ever did. He'll remind his children about it, especially at their sporting events when he thinks they might give up. He will put them in a room with the audio recording of this game and close the door so they can't walk out.

"Oh, Daddy," they'll say. "Again?"

Chad's third free throw is no good. Rebound, Fort Payne... 39 seconds to go. Somebody's gotta foul.... HE WALKED WITH THE BALL! And the Chiefs get it.

A month or two after the game Guess will hand Sanders a cassette tape of his broadcast. Fourteen years later, when he is 66, George Foster Guess Jr. will die of a heart attack. They will lay his bones in the clay on the side of a hill, next to his ancestors, between the river and Russell Cave. On his headstone they'll carve a five-word epitaph: THE VOICE OF THE CHIEFS.

Two years after that Sanders will have the tape transferred to compact disc. He will gather the old Chiefs at Western Sizzlin' and give them copies. Robert will not be there.

Thirty-two seconds left. Still got a chance. Three against five.... Robert Collier in to Chad Cobb, gotta take it down the floor. Chad's gotta do his stuff tonight. Pulls up for three—

After high school Chad and Travis will run together, ride together, raise hell together. They will always be linked by this game. Travis's steal, basket and two free throws sent the game into overtime and set the stage for Chad's singular achievement. They will vow to protect each other.

—AND HE HITS IT AND WE'RE TIED AT 67!

One night five years later, on Jan. 26, 1997, they will quarrel about whether or not Travis has been two-timing Chad's female cousin and whether or not Chad told on him. Chad will still be on crutches from the motorcycle crash. "Chad, you can't fight me," Travis will say.

"I've got other ways of handling you," Chad will say.

Travis will borrow a pistol and find Chad in the drugstore parking lot. He'll raise the gun and pull the trigger.

We've got a foul called on Chris Shelby.... Shelby's out of the game.

Two Chiefs standing.

He's gotta miss this. The Chiefs need the rebound.

Travis will say he was only shooting at the ground. He'll swear the bullets bounced.

We don't have any timeouts. It's Robert Collier and Chad Cobb against five.

One bullet will pierce Chad's left thigh and another will smash his fibula. He'll look up and see Travis aiming the gun with his eyes closed.

He missed the free throw and—

With 17 seconds left Fort Payne gets the rebound and scores. Another whistle.

—there's a charging foul called against Fort Payne! No goal. And it'll be Chief basketball!

After the gunfire Chad will drive himself to the hospital, thinking hard about permanent vengeance. From time to time after that he will drive around with his black Tec-9 semiautomatic and he will look at Travis from a distance and wonder if he can line up a shot.

Travis will plead guilty to second-degree assault and serve five months in prison. On Feb. 26, 2001, as he plays basketball in the street, he will see a man barreling toward him on a motorcycle. It won't be Chad. It will be their former teammate Thomas Hutchins, one of Travis's best friends. Thomas will be showing off for a girl and coming too fast to stop. He'll plow into Travis, knocking him out of his shoes, cracking two vertebrae and puncturing a lung.

Seventeen seconds to go. They're gonna surround Cobb. And Chad's gotta break free.

As Fort Payne makes a substitution, Sanders calls Robert and Chad to the sideline. He tries to sound very calm. He tells Robert to throw the ball in. He tells Chad to walk along the baseline toward Robert, lulling the defenders, then do a jab step and run back toward the corner and catch Robert's bounce pass and go.

Sanders figures Cobb will run so fast that he'll overshoot the basket. He tells Robert to run hard for the left block.

So we've got three or four people around Chad Cobb. So the ball comes in to Cobb. He runs it down the right sideline. He may take it all the way in. He will. He'll put it up—

Robert is fast for a big man. He reaches the left block. Five on two, and nobody boxes him out.

—No good. Robert Collier on the follow—

Robert grabs the rebound and at last he pump-fakes. The kids go flying, and he is wide open.

After high school, Robert will bounce from one coast to the other, doing demolition work here, pouring iron there. He will come home, get married and coach his stepson in football. His wife will die in 2007 from complications of diabetes and hypertension. Robert will be in rehab at the time, for his addiction to alcohol and cocaine.

—IT'S GOOD! ROBERT COLLIER MADE THE SHOT!

Years will go by and Robert will think of this game only when someone else brings it up. Even then it will feel hazy, dreamlike, as if maybe it never happened.

Robert won't set his father free from prison. He will follow him in. In 2005 police will say Robert stole a man's wallet and inhaler and beat him. He will plead guilty to second-degree robbery and be put on probation. In June 2008 he will break a man's jaw and steal his cellphone and cigarettes. He will be charged with third-degree assault and third-degree theft, and his probation will be revoked. Big Robert Collier will win an appeal to change his death sentence to life without parole. Little Robert will be scheduled for release in 2023.

Five seconds. [Fort Payne's] Mosteller down. He missed!

Two old hoops will hang above the jail yard, but basketballs will be scarce. Robert will fashion one from white socks and string.

The Chiefs get the ball and—

Chad will have his chance to join Robert in prison. He will not take it. He will look at the smashing of Travis by their old friend's motorcycle and see a certain cosmic symmetry. He will consider his children and his personal myth, forged in this three-minute overtime, and he will put down his gun.

On July 13, 2008, he will see Travis in the street. He'll pull over and get out and walk toward him and they will both smile and throw their arms around each other.

—the Chiefs are gonna WIIIIINNN! AND THE CHIEFS HAVE WON, 69 TO 67!

At the sound of the buzzer the fans engulf Robert and Chad at midcourt, nearly suffocating them, until they hear Chad screaming from the bottom of the pile, "I can't breathe!" In the visiting locker room a few boys weep, and Coach Collie says he wishes they could all float away in a submarine.

And Chad Cobb and Robert Collier the heroes of the night, in a historical game.

After the game, Robert thinks he and Chad will go on TV, talk on talk shows, sign autographs. He will sign one, for a woman in a doctor's office in Birmingham. That will be all.

A few years later Sanders will mail Robert's and Chad's black polyester jerseys to the Basketball Hall of Fame in Springfield, Mass. They will not be displayed. In the summer of 2008 someone from the Hall will mail them back.

That same summer, on the same wooden floor at North Jackson, the latest crop of Chiefs will come in for a practice. Someone will ask them about the two-on-five game. They will say they have never heard of it.

What a game, and what a night it was—

Time is a dark blue river, and it rolls one way. Outside in the cold it rolls on.

Spectacular story of "The Super" from The American Life

http://www.thisamericanlife.org/radio-archives/episode/323/the-super

Act one tells a spectacular mystery story with plot twists, unforeseen danger, bizarre coincidences, unlikely heroes, even more unlikely bad guys. I love it!
Moreover, I love the background music "Por Una Cabeza" (一步之差).
At the first beginning of Act One, I thought the super is just like the car salesman in the movie "True Lies" starring Arnold Schwarzenegger, telling spectacular lies to impress people.

So, I think it is perfect when the background music - "Por Una Cabeza" - is played just like at the end of "True Lies" to mock the super as a liar.
But, later, I find that there are substantial truth behind the super's stories. I am marveled how the music and the name of the movie "True Lies" are perfect for this story.

Transcript of Act One

Act One. The Super Always Rings Twice.

Ira Glass

This act is like one of those mystery novels that they sell at the airport with plot twists, unforeseen danger, bizarre coincidences, unlikely heroes, even more unlikely bad guys. And at its heart, of course, a super, a super named Bob. And like any airport novel, the story begins with a crime. Here's Jack.

Jack Hitt

During New York City's great crime wave of the 1980s, getting an apartment was simple. All you had to do was commit a crime.

Kevin

We had heard from a friend of a friend that if we went down and gave key money-- that is to say one month's rent; it was the going fee-- to this superintendent-- that is to say Bob-- that we would be able to get an apartment.

Jack Hitt

This is my friend Kevin. He and I got our apartments in the same building on 99th Street in the early '80s by bribing the same superintendent, a guy named Bob. These were old, beat-up flats with screaming radiators and warped floors and exposed pipes. A city engineer once inspected the building and declared that it was six stories of dust held up by 100 years of paint.
These were our first New York apartments. We were there to start our lives. New York was all romance, and everything was out-sized and outrageous, the buildings in Midtown, our ambition, the night life, and as we quickly discovered, our super, Bob. All sorts of things about him were truly spectacular, like, for example, the way he repaired our apartments. Here's Chris, another tenant in the building.

Chris

After we got burglarized, Bob put in safety gates for the fire escape, which he welded so that nobody could get in. But you couldn't get out in a fire, either. There was no way to open them. He told us that they were installing sliding revolving doors. He never explained what those were, but I do remember thinking to myself, how can he say they're sliding revolving doors? But he said it was such a totally straight face.

Jack Hitt

Bob's work habits were a thing of wonder. I remember one time Bob showed up with his assistant, a generally talented guy named Smitty. My sink was backed up, and Bob started pouring this heavy black liquid from a gallon jug into the standing water. Smitty started backing up, and with experience as my guide, I started backing up, too. One cup, Smitty yelled, just one cup. Shut up, Bob explained.
And he emptied the entire jug into the water. There were nasty rumblings, hot chemical reactions were happening somewhere in the walls. I was very scared. And suddenly, the doors below the sink where I kept my cleaning stuff, they blew open with an explosion. And this unspeakable, oily sludge poured out across the kitchen floor. Bob was so much more than just a bad handyman.

Chris

Very early on, I began to perceive Bob's talents as a fabulist. It was really painful to go down and pay the rent every month, because you had to give it to him, which meant you had to stand there and listen to 10, 15, 20 minutes of completely insane stories. A big running theme was Bob's importance in the world in general, and particularly in Brazil.

Anne

I definitely remember his cattle ranch stories.

Jack Hitt

This is Anne, another tenant during those early days, and now married to Chris.

Chris

He had seven cattle ranches, four cattle ranches he owned in Brazil, and the seven vineyards he had in Italy. Or it might have been seven cattle ranches in Brazil and four vineyards in Italy.

Anne

If you actually took him-- after he left the room and you thought about what he said, you'd think, why is he living here? Because he was like basically a king, and the village people would just welcome him.

Chris

He claimed that there was a clause in the constitution of Brazil that gave him immunity from any prosecution whatsoever. And that, in fact, he could, as he put it, go and kill the president of the Brazilian state and he would still be immune from prosecution.

Jack Hitt

Of course, Bob, being Bob, had an explanation for how he went from being a South American cattle baron to a New York City super.

Chris

He had had two heart attacks. And his doctor had-- this is an actual story.

Jack Hitt

I remember this one.

Chris

His doctor had prescribed that he gain a lot of weight and move to America. So probably the first time in medical history that enormous weight gain was prescribed for a heart condition.

Jack Hitt

In his own way, Bob united the building. All of us, the elderly black businessman, the Puerto Rican grandmother, the handsome Bombay immigrant, me, the Southerner in exile, we all had our favorite Bob stories. We all did our own impersonations of Bob. It was impossible not to try to out-Bob whoever was talking with an even more outlandish Bob story of your own. We collected and traded Bob stories, comparing versions, analyzing his technique.

Chris

He was remarkably unfazed by any show of skepticism about these stories. There was a story about how he had once hung a bag of acid from the roof of the building to chase away the various homeless men who would, in those days, often come and congregate by the corner of this building. Bob had supposedly hung a bag of acid from the top and it would drip down steadily on them.
Now, I have no idea how you hang a bag of acid, how you get the acid in the bag and put that up there. That's no small feat in itself. But of course, the best part is Bob is telling us this story at the very same time that you could lean out of the office where he's talking and see the three or four homeless guys sitting on the corner.

Jack Hitt

Sitting right there.

Chris

Apparently completely unscarred or bothered by dripping acid.

Jack Hitt

The other story that I always found really captured just all of Bob's essence for me was when-- every kitchen in this building has these funny, circular, fluorescent bulbs, very specialized light bulbs. They're also in the hallways out on the first floor. And mine, after 10 years of noble service, finally burnt out. And I looked at it and I thought, huh, where do you buy one of those? So I trotted on down to Bob's office one morning. And I said, Bob, the light bulb in my kitchen is burned out. And I'm just wondering, do I buy that and replace it? And if so, where do you buy them? Or do you all just replace that for me?
And of course, he went into this total Bob tear. He's like, yes, that's right. You, let me tell you something, mister. Don't try to steal one of the light bulbs in the hallway. I know what you're thinking. But I've booby trapped them. And if you climb up there and you try to take the light bulb, it will blow up and shoot the glass in your eyes. And you will be blind for all time. And I said, I remember saying, so I take that to mean that I have to buy the bulb myself.

The very opposite of Bob was Allan, the landlord. If Bob was larger than life, Allan was smack in the middle, the average percentile. He had a family. He lived in White Plains. I had met his wife. Doing business with Allan was a completely routine experience. If it was a toilet to be fixed, he'd make sure the crew got there on time and got it done. Even in our biggest blowouts, he was always reasonable, civil even.
One time, things got a little testy when Allan started neglecting the old Puerto Rican folks in the building. I'd become friendly with one grandmother who showed me her tub full of green, stagnant bathwater. Allan and I had some tense words. And I and some others even held meetings to start a rent strike. But in the end, Allan gracefully withdrew, and we all went back to normal business. Back to Bob, the inscrutable, endless mystery that was Bob.
Fast forward to 1989. I had been in my apartment eight years, I had a steady job, and I was walking to work one morning. Somewhere along the way, I saw The Daily News blaring the latest tabloid crime story. Headline, "Terror Landlord." I look closer and realized it was Allan. My Allan, the landlord. The nice guy whose kids I knew.
The story was incredible. He had been arrested for murder, for hiring hit men to kill his brother-in-law, Arthur Katz, in 1980. And as the story got out, it quickly became clear that Bob was the one who had ratted Allan out. Allan was found guilty and sentenced to 25 years to life in prison, where he remains today.
More time passed. I got a new apartment in the West Village. Then I got married, had children, and later moved to another state, where Allan and Bob became memories, proof that I had lived in New York back when crack was king and the murder rates topped 2,000 a year. In the late '90s, almost a decade after I'd last seen Bob or Allan, I was working on an investigative piece about money laundering. And a source at the Treasury Department had suggested I call this really smart prosecutor in New York named John Moscow.
So I rang him up and started just yakking the way you do. I asked him if he'd handled financial crime a lot. And he was quick to say that he'd worked homicide in New York, back in the '80s, during the crime wave, when crack was king and the murder rates topped 2,000 a year. Yeah, I said, I lived there, too. I told him I was actually involved in one of those tabloid stories, mine involving a landlord who'd hired contract killers to murder his brother-in-law and then gets ratted out by the super.
There was a peculiar pause on the phone. Then Moscow said, Allan Stern, West 99th Street? I'm the guy who put him behind bars. Right away, of course, we started talking about Bob. I told him the light bulb story. Moscow had a good laugh. And then I went on, in the way we residents of 99th Street can do, and finally got to the one about Bob claiming that he had a special exemption from the Brazilian constitution and could murder anyone in Brazil. Again, there was that odd Moscow pause. And then he said, yeah, the thing is that one's kind of true.

John Moscow

I asked him, when you were in the military, where were you assigned? I was in the military police.

Jack Hitt

Here's John Moscow, describing Bob's testimony on the witness stand.

John Moscow

And what was your job? My job was to locate, interrogate, and execute politically unreliable persons.

Jack Hitt

Get out of here.

John Moscow

Bob had been in the death squad in Brazil. And he was asked, did you kill any people while you were there? Yes. Was it more than one? Yes. Was it more than five? I don't know. What do you mean you don't know? Well, if you shoot somebody at long range and they go down, you don't know if they're dead or wounded.
There's comes a point when you realize that beneath all of the fanciful stories, there usually is a substantial amount of truth. He said he came North for his health, and perhaps to protect his heart. But he was thinking about high-impact lead poisoning. He was in his 20s when he was in the death squad. And he realized, at one point, that a substantial number of people in his squad were dead of violent causes, which would be consistent either with their being suicidal in the risks they took or with somebody having a list of the names and where they were located, someone whose relatives had been mishandled. So he decided that leaving was good for his health.

Jack Hitt

All those crazy Bob stories we swapped for years, who'd have thought that the truth about Bob would be just as crazy? According to Moscow, not only had Bob been in a death squad, but he had been a key figure in the murder of Allan's brother-in-law. Bob was crucial in securing the talents of the two hit men, named Sammy Feet and Crazy Joe. And according to the court documents, Bob was in the boiler room with some of his crew when news of the hit came down. They celebrated with Martini & Rossi. And things really got going when a portable radio just happened to belt out that Queen song. You know the one.
[MUSIC - "ANOTHER ONE BITES THE DUST" BY QUEEN]

The hit was just one of numerous crimes-- brilliant crimes, really-- that Bob and Allan pulled off from that little office. It turns out that when it comes to crime, Bob was incredibly competent. He and Allan set up dummy construction companies. They defrauded the state with counterfeit charges. To force out one tenant, they rewired the electrical outlets to high voltage lines to fry all the apartment appliances.
My favorite was their natural gas scam. They put fake cones out on the street and actually jackhammered through the asphalt to a working gas line. They bypassed the meters and in time, eliminated more than $800,000 of Allan's gas bills.
On top of all of this, Bob helped the prosecution snare Allan. Bob tapped Allan's phones. Bob wore a wire. And in court transcripts, Allan calmly weighs the relative merits of buying off some people versus having them killed. And this is what really comes across when you talk to Moscow, just how wrong all of us were at sizing up Bob and Allan.

John Moscow

We had 2,200 homicides in New York as opposed to fewer than 500, which is what we're on for this year. You had a lot of people talking about killing people. There was a certain rationality and cold-bloodedness about this murder that was just plain different. Bob testified under oath at trial. I watched him when he was being cross-examined.
And I don't think I'll ever forget. Defense counsel asked him, did you torture men or women? And he said, my specialty was men. And the way he said it, my blood felt about 10 degrees colder. And there was just absolute-- the courtroom, everyone was persuaded that he meant it.

Jack Hitt

So how did Bob, former Brazilian death squad officer, rat out Allan?

John Moscow

Bob, I think, called tips to report the murder.

Jack Hitt

Tips?

John Moscow

Right.

Jack Hitt

You mean the 1-800 number? Or one of the local crime reporting--

John Moscow

The 1-877-TIPS, or whatever? Yeah. So he calls that. And then he goes and makes an appointment and meets with the Major Case Squad.

Jack Hitt

What drove him to turn Allan in?

John Moscow

Allan and his family had discussed selling the building and moving to Florida. And in the course of that, Allan had discussed having the president and the vice president of the Tenants Association murdered. And Bob figured that Allan was going to have these two guys whacked and blame Bob.

Jack Hitt

What year was this?

John Moscow

This was 1988.

Jack Hitt

Now, I only bring that up because at one point, there was a rent strike that was going to be put together in my building. And I was the tenant leader of that. I mean, was that the rent problem that Allan was upset about?

John Moscow

Unless there was another rent strike.

Jack Hitt

Wow. So Allan might have actually tried to get me whacked.

John Moscow

Ultimately, Bob went into the police station and admitted his own role in a murder, and thought he was going to prison, because his perception at the time was that Allan would cause these murders to take place. And so he protected himself by ratting Allan out first.

Jack Hitt

So Bob turning state's evidence basically saved my life, or the life of the tenant organizers.

John Moscow

That was Bob's thought.

Jack Hitt

Listening to Moscow explain all this to me was like passing out on a plane and coming to, only to find out the plane had crashed and I had survived. It was just all unbelievable on some existential level. Yes, murders happened, but not to me. That guy who advised me during my little rent strike, his head was found in a garbage can. But he'd been a real rabble-rouser and had lots of enemies. It seemed ridiculous to believe I could have ended up like that tenant organizer. But I could have, if not for Bob.
I found Bob. I reached him on the phone, and we had a nice chat. He remembers me as the tall, blond guy on the first floor. He wanted to talk to me for this story, but his lawyer told him not today, or ever. And then Bob suggested that I not bother to call back. I wanted to ask him about the cattle ranches and being written into the constitution and give those stories a fresh listen, knowing what I know now.
And of course, I wanted to know whether I was the one who was going to get whacked. I wasn't the only tenant organizer in the building at the time. But I'll never get that answer now. All I have is another Bob story, full of details I can't confirm, but so delicious that I can't wait to go back to my old pals and tell it to them.

Chris

Holy [BLEEP]. You've taken it to a whole new level, sir. Holy [BLEEP].

Anne

That is scary.

Chris

Whoa. That is so-- but it does make you sort of go back and rethink the whole pattern of exchanges you had with him. I never said to myself, there's some reality to who this guy says he is.

Kevin

It doesn't surprise me, in a way.

Jack Hitt

Again, here's Kevin.

Kevin

I mean, it's talking about the banality of evil. He strikes me as one of these Eichmann-type characters who would, in certain contexts, do completely awful, disgusting things, and then, if removed from them, if put in some more peaceful banal surrounding, would settle back and just be a windy superintendent of a building.
It was kind of interesting, though. After this was all over, after he had testified and Allan was put away-- of course, Allan's daughters, I believed, then owned the buildings. So of course, Bob lost his free apartment and his super's position. And it was almost like he kind of deflated. Like, nobody had to talk to him anymore.
So he would walk around-- it was almost pathetic-- he'd walk down the block and say hi and people would just kind of go by, nod to him and go by. And then, a short time after this, he just wasn't around anymore. He was gone. And I have no idea where he went to. Where is he, anyway? Did you find out any of that?

Jack Hitt

He's an elevator inspector in New York City.

Kevin

Good God. We're all in trouble now.

Jack Hitt

I found Allan also, at his website, allanstern.net. He's been appealing his conviction for over 15 years. He makes the case that he's innocent. His argument is that the entire story of Sammy Feet and Crazy Joe and the explanation of the brother-in-law's murder and all the rest of it is hearsay, a grandiose fiction. In other words, Allan is saying he can top us all, that he's the victim of the most outlandish Bob story ever told.

Ira Glass

Jack Hitt. He now lives in New Haven in a house, where he is his own super. Coming up, a super gets a crush. That's in a minute, from Chicago Public Radio and Public Radio International, when our program continues.

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http://www.tingroom.com/song/index.html

"Daughter Not Doctor!"

In my younger and more vulnerable years, some teachers did things that hurt me so much that even made me feel inferior.

1: "You think you are the only one who knows how to calculate this?"

I went to kindergarten when I was four years old. Because I started going to school at the same time as my big sister, I was the youngest student in that class. From my parents' memory, when I was a little girl, I was always timid for strangers and serious people.

Unfortunately for me, my math teacher happened to be a very strict and serious person. One day, he asked us to do some simple calculations, like "1+2=?". I started calculating while reading softly the questions and my answers. I am not a person that likes to show-off myself. I simply did not know that I should not read out my answers in case that other students heard and copied my answers rather than solving the problems by themselves.

Suddenly, I heard the teacher said loudly and angrily: "Be quiet! You think you are the only person who knows how to calculate this?" I felt terrible about myself as if I did some horrible things.

2: "Daughter Not Doctor!"

I started learning English when I went to junior middle school. The English teachers in my hometown-a very small and remote town-knew little about how to teach English. They simply asked us to memorize words and read paragraphs in the textbooks. My English teacher was a handsome young man. When he first entered the classroom, he started a speech in English. We, English beginners who couldn't speak a complete sentence, marveled at his English, which we couldn't understand at all. By doing that, he tried to establish his authority in the class.

One day in the English class, he asked me to read a paragraph in front of the class. I read it without noticing that I mistakenly pronounced "Daughter" as "Doctor". He asked me to read that paragraph again expecting me to correct myself. I immediately knew I did something wrong, but I had no idea what I did wrong. I read it again still making that same mistake. He asked me to re-read again and again. I don't remember how many times I read that paragraph. Eventually, he told me:"It's daughter not doctor!"

I remember that I hated myself making such stupid mistake and I felt that I was humiliated in front of all my classmates. Even today, I can see the picture of a young girl standing in the classroom hanging her head in shame.

Whenever I remember those things, I wish I could go back in time to protect that little girl, to tell those teachers that there is a better way to correct mistakes of students, to ensure the young me that you are not inferior because of those mistakes. Also because of this, I wish I could become a teacher not only to give students knowledge, but also to help them to become the people they are supposed to be.